i wrote this when i was on a plane from Singapore to MadridIt was always evening, on the way home.
A moment of dullness when dishes are washed,
Where houses smell like ginger and garlic
Beating with the sound of showers on tiles.
And repetitive voices cast no effect or course,
On mechanical engines of fuel and dark exhaust
Evening wears on endlessly like a chord.
You’ve seen this scene many times before
Like a time ordained, pre-mediated score
Often, you let yourself be written into the lines
Rehearsing polite sips of coffee and wine
But today will be different, you told yourself
You’ll appreciate this local, rooted world of things
But the neighbour’s small talk and ringing newspaper man
Spoke to you of an altogether different plan.
And she sets the table for no one in particular.
“Are you coming home today for dinner?”
But you, afraid on the other line to say,
That you, her only child, was leaving the house for faraway.
Dinner is served for one with steaming hope
But food chills quickly in bitter mouths.
Evening wears on endlessly like a chord.
Each time you were neither here nor there,
Flying is a state you knew and you were often there.
The crevice of in-betweens put you together with hooks
Your body a map of Chinese clothes and Western books
You had a talent for understanding the transience of beds,
Living mostly in musty-smelling, anywhere-taxis instead.
Restless mutterings could be heard in the night
In between the sleepless world of dim street lights
And so taking off again and again was easy,
Like those weightless, air-suspended souls
Living at the cross section of time and sleep.
A world of strangers, stranger yet to themselves
From here, all worlds look the same
Civilization’s merry go round in a plane
Ahead you saw and felt that empty space,
That horizon where night meets day in one place
Years wear on endlessly like a chord.
Smiling, the lady gives you a shiny new card
Because you’ve won all the games of connect-the-dots
You had no allegiance to any country or to any home,
Never knew what it was like to be possessed or owned.
Time spun by the web of a meridian’s robe
Everyday was new in the jet-lagging globe
Where did you take off, where did you stay?
You have absolutely no memory of that day.
An old lady in the one room flat
Serves dinner for one with steaming hope